Fornication

If you don’t know what fornication is let me fill you in on it. Fornication is sex and you aren’t married. Yes, read that again I said SEX and you AIN’T married. Giggling but let’s get serious. Some of us really don’t understand some of the words that are in the bible. We don’t care what they are, we don’t search to find out what they mean and certainly don’t ask what it is. The preacher says it quick or you’re on Facebook, Instagram of taking a selfie and missed what was said. And let’s be honest how many of us really read our bibles during the week? If we do, we skip those areas, right? I know I did and didn’t. What I mean is I would read about fornication get curious to know what it meant but never asked and didn’t bother with looking it up.

One day I found myself in a pretty decent relationship thinking its heading somewhere then it went nowhere fast. I suddenly started feeling bad after sex or slipping off to the shower to hide the tears. I was so confused like God what is this? Why am I leaking from my eyes? Why am I feeling this way? Lord what’s wrong with me? I’m laughing while writing this, but it was long hard and painful very unfunny at the time. This burning desire came up in me to read something I read a million times. Then this burning desire led me to look up the definition of some words I had read. When I gave a little attitude about looking up the definitions this desire challenged me saying you know your definition of these words, but do you know mine? I said hum ok so let’s see what your definitions are. I got to the word fornication and said oh Lord this again. When I read what it was, I was blown away. Suddenly everything started to make sense to me. Holy Spirit then told me it was time to deal with this. My response was well this really isn’t a good time since I’m in a relationship. I was reminded how I didn’t have to compromise, and the guy would understand. I finally had enough, pity party table for one.

Father is more than good. He is faithful to an unfaithful people yep me included. He would gently remind me how I said I would give up anything for Him and how all I wanted was Him. He then reminded me of all the many things He’d done for me that I asked Him to do things for me and He did it. You remember when you were drunk on the bathroom floor and said you wanted to stop drinking? I said yes, He said who helped you stop? Who made sure you got home on the nights you partied too hard? I said You, Lord. He said you remember when you wanted to quit smoking. Who helped you? Who was there when you wanted to give up and said you could do it? Who was there when that guy broke your heart? All that you asked for me to do I did for you, correct? I said yes Lord. In that conversation He made me to realize I wanted to change so many things and He readily helped and all He was asking was for this one thing. I finally said yes after some rebellion and repenting.

I was able to give up fornication. Father cares more about the inside of us then we care for ourselves, and He helped me understand this point. His tenderness and guidance mixed with his love, mercy and grace guided me out of some deep dark places. When I gave it to Him, He gave me a strongman to battle and after that fight ended, I got some fire power I didn’t know existed. Life became so simpler and everything I did seemed to be effortless. I said wow living for God is easier than I ever realized. Then the fall came yep you read it right. I fell, like we all do at least it was in private. Yes, I got back up regained my focus and left it all behind. Now all that’s left is the testimony of how great of a loving, faithful and righteous creator we really have. Don’t take your relationship with Him lightly. Study to show thyself approved. Look within and see how much He has done because you asked Him to and now when He ask something of us, we say let me get back to you on that one. In Him we are much stronger than we think and through Him we really can do all things.